So the day didn't start out too bad, I mean yeah I'm still sick and I have this dry hacking cough that isn't awesome. But I managed to clean my room, and maintain my office as well as finish the laundry.
My browser keeps acting up about pushing buttons and has to be restarted to make the buttons work, unfortunatly that stops my timers which I didn't realize until after I spent well over an hour in Clean Email. That said I'm down to six thousand emails to be sorted as opposed to the 103k that I started with. So that was a bit of a snag.
I managed to actually finish a chapter in my craft book while I was waiting for my son to finish his college class so I was still feeling like I could be pretty productive.
It was my daughter's day off so I thought I won't have to babysit today. I can accomplish something. Yeah, not so much. When we got home from the college she said she needed to take her oldest shopping for my husband's birthday which seemed sweet. My son volunteered to babysit the baby so he wasn't out in the often changing weather. Her shopping trip took eight hours because it turned into hanging out with her friends. My son was in my office every 10 to 15 minutes needing help or with a question or just because he wanted to talk to me. At 5:30 I gave up even trying to complete anything and went and watched a movie. They'll leave me alone if I watch a movie. I don't know why. It's only when I'm doing something important to me that my children are determined not to let me do it. I have ONE that respects my need to have this time for me. If he sees the younger ones in here too much he'll come try to help get them out of here so I can do what I want to do. And that's only some of the time when he's not busy with his gaming groups.
My daughter didn't clean the living room again, because even when she came home she threw all the shit she bought in the middle of the dining room table, finally got the baby she avoided all day and went back out with her friends. And then according to her he wanted to go to bed so she couldn't do her chores. Funny that I can clean my room, office and do the laundry all while watching the baby. I can even get a lot of my maintanance stuff done on the computer all while watching the baby. I don't get a ton done in writing because it required more of my concentration while checking email but I can watch the baby and do most work stuff on the computer and in the house. Yet somehow no one else in this how can lift a damn finger if they have the baby and even when they have the baby either they're in here asking me how to fix him or he's screaming his head of someplace in the house that I have to go investigate what's wrong with him. Usually it's them putting their wants of watching tv or playing on their phones above his needs. I love my grandson, I mean abosolutley adore him, but he's not my baby. I shouldn't have to take on this much of a parenting role. And damn it she gets one day off a week most weeks, he shouldn't be spending that day off with me. And she's useless on a day she works unless she wants to visit or hang out with friends. She can muster up the energy to go do that, but not to clean up the massive messes she makes around the house. I told my kids last night that I'm at the point where I want to move out. It's my freaking house! But I'm not supposed to be everything to everyone anymore and I don't care if that makes me sound selfish. I need a freaking break from taking care of eight people. I need a freaking break from people and time to just do what I want to do. Not just a few minutes here and there to check email. Yeah I could try to use that time to write, but it's like they have radar and know when I'm trying because the minute I start typing in that document they're in my office.
I want to escape somewhere no one can reach me but that I still have access to the computer and limited internet. Not any internet that involves communication, but one that I can access the websites I use to get organized and write. Still feeling crappy, the bottom of the hill is flooded and I still have to take my son to college because he hasn't learned to drive yet. I need to finish teaching him because I'm so tired of this crap. I was supposed to hit up the Walmart sale today but my husband and I agreed betwen the weather and the massive cold I have it was better to skip it. He's freaked out because his mom was admitted to the hospital last night, which was not awesome. There's never a right thing to say there or anything I can do to help.
Anyway back to another day of my life revovling around everyone else but me.
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